http://real-romance.livejournal.com/ real_romance - LiveJournal.com Mon, 11 Oct 2004 05:13:24 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com real_romance 4798638 personal http://real-romance.livejournal.com/282.html Mon, 11 Oct 2004 05:13:24 GMT http://real-romance.livejournal.com/282.html Okay, so im watching American history X tonight, and im thinking to myself... "here is someone who got life a little mixed up for a while"... Toward the end he tries to change it for the better, but sometimes its too late... i dont understand that.. if were to suppose to "live" life, then why arent we allowed to make mistakes, and why do we worry so much about them? why do we worry about pleasing others, and how we look each and every day. isnt life superficial in a sense? i mean if you think about each day that passes in your life, and you look at everything that made up that day..... what did you do? what happened? what is the importance of your life, and to be honest, what the hell is the point? i dont know the point of my life, and that is depressing to me. To be honest, im always looking ahead. My wedding day, my future children, who my husband will be, what job i will have... i never think about today. and it passes me by each and every day without me realizing what i missed. the same old routine, the same old people, and definitely the same shit. i always wonder what it is that im trying to look for... a boyfriend? a companion? a pet? lol or possibly meaning in my life. why am i important in this world, and does it make a difference if im here or not? because i think in life it should always be that way. leaving an impression on someone or something to have made your life worth living. not many people leave that impression, and even fewer make it really matter. if we think about what life really is... you are born, you grow up, you have fun, you love, you grow old, and then you die. and it comes whether you like it or not. and it comes whether you are ready or not.. i want alot of things in my life, i guess im just hoping that i will get something out of it, and make the most of it. http://real-romance.livejournal.com/282.html public 0